Do You Ever Feel Thwarted?

Sometimes it feels like God Himself has opposed us and our efforts to succeed. The stars seemed aligned for breakthrough and suddenly catastrophe strikes. Hearbreak disrupts. Hope is lost.

There’s are times I feel thwarted and it angers me to the core. The injustice of my good intentions falling apart before execution is too much to bear.

Then there are times when being thwarted feels special. Almost like a privilege. When my insides feel cleaner and purified by the process of disappointment. As though I am being pruned. And while my desires are not being fulfilled, somehow I know that I am better off for it.

That’s hard to live with, though. The moment passes and that sense of rightness dissipates. And what’s left but rationalizations of how being thwarted was only the result of my disorganization. My lack of preparedness.

Thank you, Father, for thwarting me when it is in the best interests of my heart to be conformed into the image of your will. It’s painful, but it’s sweet. Thank you for this precious sacrament.


Seated in the Palace

Between God’s promises in our life and the palace of our divine purpose is always the process that molds us into the person we need to be to stay seated in the palace.

– Kris Vallotton

The Coming Shift

There may not be a “next move of God” for many of us unless there is a dramatic shift in the way we conduct our lives and ministries. Old paradigms of thinking must die; new vision must be embraced. Practically speaking, the difference between success and failure for many will be determined by a willingness to accommodate change.

– Larry Randolph

The irony is that for more than two decades, we as a church have been hearing the call to adapt and posture ourselves for a radical shift in the way we do life, yet we react with disgust or disbelief when specific action is proposed. And yet, we have more than a little biblical precedence indicating that revelation often comes from people or sources we might easily dislike or ignore.

I know myself.

Or I once did. So well that I could put my every thought and feeling down on paper.

Then something happened.

I’m not quite sure what it was.

That’s not true. I remember now.

I suffered.

Then I suffered some more.

And now the words have been pressed from me like a grape.

I Really Have a Worldview… Promise

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