Month: October 2006

  • Halloween Confusion

    Those of us who grew up in a conservative religious background know what I’m talking about when I say that Halloween has caused a fair share of confusion. Everything involving magic or witches or werewolves was evil (look for another post to come on magic). Everything that wasn’t obviously biblical was condemned. Some of us didn’t even listen to secular music until we gained some level of teenage independence.

    I don’t agree with the blind avoidance and condemnation of all things non-biblical. Blind, unquestioned doctrine is what causes religious splintering and cults to grow. God gave us minds to use, not to waste. I cannot blanketly label some acts sin unless they are called such in Scripture. At the same time, I do not give myself free license to do all the hundreds and thousands of things not mentioned as sin in Scripture strictly because they are not listed. For one, technology is not what it once was, so there are infinitely more choices each person must face on a daily basis. Halloween is not one of those things I feel 100% concerned about.

    Honestly, I don’t celebrate it. I also don’t have kids, which my best friend insists will completely transform my opinion of the holiday. Maybe. Or maybe he just means that it’s hard to say no to one’s children when all the other kids are dressing up in cool costumes and getting free candy. Even so, I doubt I will celebrate Halloween simply because of the fact that it is at least partly a celebration of horror, death, and fear. Honestly, I’m not a big holiday person. I hate the commercialism driving our society’s famous celebrations.

    Whoever chose the Valentine’s Day colors has no sense of taste, and did not understand or care that the popularization of such a holiday would reduce gift giving to a shame-based obligation (i.e. only bad boyfriends/husbands don’t give gifts on this day). Christmas is little better. Santa Claus is a famous figure because he instills gift-lust in all children, young and old. Persistent begging leads to parental resignation, thus equalling increased spending. Not only is the time of greatest annual greed, someone thought it was worth lying to children about the existence of this mythical character just to induce them to be good (i.e. capitalizing on poor parenting skills). Thanksgiving should be renamed Gluttons Day (or Dallas Cowboys Day). This holiday at least centers around giving thanks, so I must commend it for being the least self-centered (at least originally).

    Then there’s Halloween. All Saints Day (November 1st) is historically the day where Roman Catholics Episcopalians, and Lutherans used to honor all saints, whether known or unknown. The Irish, Scotts, Welsh, and others celebrated the eve of All Saints and called it Samhain, Calan Gaeaf, Allantide, or Hop-tu-Naa. This was a druidic celebration, thought to be a time of year when spirits could make contact with the physical world. Magic was also considered the most potent on this day. Those are the roots of Halloween.

    True, you don’t hear so much about these roots in our commercialized American Halloween celebrations. But you still see the influence. It is still the day where people celebrate misery, death, disfigurement, decay, horror, darkness and fear. Some dress up in nice pretty costumes or something more artistic, but it is, in a sense, the day of Horror film celebration. Do I condemn little children for wanting to wear cool costumes and get free candy? Not in the least. Do I consider it a waste of a holiday? Absolutely. I plan on creating family holidays for my children whereby they learn to appreciate and celebrate life. Costumes included.


  • The Miracle of Life and Childbirth

    You probably think that I am about to wax on about the miracle of childbirth. I’m not. Not because it’s not miraculous. It is. I posted this photo because the sight of it struck me so.How do I explain? This is a man whom I respect and admire. He is not perfect. I do not pretend he is without flaw. He does, however, live out of a certain sense of duty, virtue, and ethics.

    That also has nothing to do with why I posted his photograph. Truth be told, I miss him. Both he and his wife are dear friends of ours, and we rarely see them. Now Russ is a father and Christi is a mother. They have been translated into another phase of existence. This is beautiful. It is also lonely.

    It’s a loneliness that only those of you who allow yourselves to indulge in a little self absorption would likely recognize. When you can go to a wedding, a funeral, a birth, a celebration, and walk away with a sad loneliness and sense of personal loss, you have arrived at the type of feeling to which I refer.

    Russ will never be a bachelor again. He will never not be a father. He is forever something else. Something much more, perhaps, yet still something “other”. It’s not that I wish he would return to his former state. I do not wish him to undo his lifelong covenant with his bride. But the past is something never to be regained, and significant events state this truth clearly to those of us paying attention. Once you pass a milestone, it becomes yet another marker in time you will never recover.

    The miracle, though, is that this man is a father. Yes, it is a miracle that the baby was conceived, carried to term, and born. But I see a miracle in Russ. I see a man in the process of development, nurtured and challenged by the march of time.

    Though younger than me by a year or two, he has learned some valuable lessons about living and treating one’s neighbor that I still struggle to learn. He has patented the ability to nurture a fragile person without wounding his or her ego. He knows how to listen, to ask the right type of questions, and to speak with a heart that expresses true concern for the other person’s well-being. And now he is a father.

    Our beliefs are not identical. For all I know, he may think of me as a radical charismatic. We do not see eye to eye on everything, but I have high hopes for this child, and any children to follow. They have a blessed future: two loving parents devoted to truth and to the tender expression of it to those in need.

    The miracle of life is that sometimes a child is born into the right family.


  • How Will You Change the World?

    One by one, you do. All of you. Yes, even you. You change the world. As it spins on its axis. You are out there, touching and smiling and talking and feeling. You create history.

    I see these movies about painters, writers, and other creative geniuses. I see them, and I think to myself, Yeah! I could do that. Of course, then there are other complications. I am regularly amazed by movies. I hear people say things in them that I didn’t realize other people thought. I thought I was the only one. Figures.

    These characters take chances. They take risks. They step out into the unknown. They risk failure. And the successful ones transcend the bullsh*! experience that many of us experience.

    I have taken risks. Heather and I stepped out into the unknown when I left a guaranteed paycheck for a non-paid copywriting internship. There was no telling what would come of it, and I couldn’t go back to my old job. The first year was like riding the Texas Giant (roller coaster – sheesh, where have you been?). I went from hope to disappointment, hope to disappointment.

    Today, I see the world somewhat differently. We never change completely, even when our lives are transformed. Remember that.

    As I said, I have taken some risks. I have avoided others. To this day, I do not know if I can write a book. I have yet to push through. I started a book four years ago that I would love to complete, but I haven’t seriously picked it up in 3+ years. But it’s still there. It’s in my heart. I know a hundred other people must feel this way, but I feel this kinship with C. S. Lewis. There was something in his fiction that I haven’t found anywhere else. I found magic. Real magic. Tolkein can’t compare. Robert Jordan can’t compare. All the usual suspects can’t compare. Lewis knew things he never fully divulged.

    …I’ve just avoided a bad joke about women (though probably not, since I’m admitting to it). God made each one of us unique. Something in us must shine. Watch the film, Coach Carter. The truth is worth hearing:

    “Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. It’s not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

    So the question again: How will you change the world? You don’t have to tell me. You don’t have to tell anyone. But think on it.


  • Singhai Saturday

    Ahhh…Nothing like a cold Thai malt liquor on a Saturday afternoon….right? Whole Foods Market, the regional mecca of everything tasty and organic, had a sale today on Singhai, a tasty Thai malt liquor.

    Let me tell you, after more than a month of parasite cleanses and mostly healthy foods (yes, I was bad once or twice), anything resembling beer was a welcomed sight. Would I recommend it? Sure, if you want to try something new. Not so much, if you want great taste. Then again, taste is apparently subjective (for some reason, not everyone agrees with my taste?!?!? go figure…). In its favor, I must admit that I added two lemon curls which only made it taste like lemon flavored alcohol.

    Final verdict: It was worth the experience, but not a second buy.


  • Change Your Clocks

    Don’t forget to change your clocks back one hour tonight! It’s that one night of the year when we get to catch an extra hour of zzz’s or stay up an extra hour late. The party animal in you that has lain dormant for years is begging for a little holiday.

    Spend it how you want. Just take advantage of the time you have. Life is but a breath, you know.


  • I’d Rather Beat the Fockers

    That’s right. I’d beat them with a stick! Why I even tried to watch the sequel is beyond me. They can’t stop from irritating me! I’ve never wanted to hurt Robert DeNiro in my life… until now. This poor, moronic Gaylord Focker is the victim. The victim of unfair judgment, of bad decisions, insecurity, and genetic flaws. I simply can’t stand it! I haven’t even made to the introduction of Focker’s parents.

    I need a punching bag so I can beat the crap out of something before continuing the movie. Am I alone here? The rest of my family watched the first movie and laughed all the way through. I cringed. I felt for the guy. He was stupid, but he was treated like a bastard womanizing drug-dealing terrorist. I actually remember my surroundings when I watched that movie. I was at my parents’ house with my wife. I hadn’t quit smoking at that point, and I had to go outside in the middle of the movie just to survive.

    Isn’t entertainment supposed to entertain? Seriously. I got more stress from that movie than from my job. I had to stop watching television just to calm down. Unbelievable. How can so many things go so wrong for one guy? I mean, really? I know it’s only a movie, but still…. it just wasn’t fun like it was supposed to be. And now I am watching the sequel in segments, only to find that my stress and anxiety are back. Who thought that making these films was a good idea?


  • The Empty Mailbox

    An empty mailbox is an empty mind. It is a symbol. A sign of the times. Though most of us haven’t received an actual handwritten letter in months if not years, we still make the daily trip to the mailbox in hopes of a surprise – only to find more bills and enough ads to line a birdcage. Why do we even bother? The thought had never occurred to me to remove my mailbox, though I had a renter who did so and never received any of my letters concerning collections and maintenance. Convenient for him. Guess he had no hope of receiving a letter.

    I think of The Postman, a film starring Kevin Costner set in a post-nuclear civil war America. Digital technology had been wiped off the continent. All that remained were isolted villages with walls to protect themselves from raiders. And one man pretending to be a postman was able to revive a country, one village at a time; all because of the hope and warmth passed from hand to hand with a simple letter. This is no joke. It is not a grandiose idea concocted by Hollywood (well, the post-nuclear civil war part was, but that’s all).

    Letters are powerful. They are powerful, in part, because of the time and effort required. Letters are the classic, aged red while emails and instant messages are the fruity wine coolers. Both can bring a buzz, but one imparts a taste of history and warmth while the other is forced and overbearing. Modern technology carries none of the magic or mystery embodied in a simple paper envelope. I wrote letters to my wife when we were dating. I still write her a letter every now and then. But she lives with me, so sending her a letter via the postman is a bit unnecessary. Don’t get me wrong, I am very glad she lives with me. But a part of something is lost when the letter has no need of travel.

    So I must look elsewhere to write my “letters.” There is always family in Oklahoma. I could write them, and I do on occasion. Not quite as poetic or romantic as writing one’s beloved or dearest friend. Still, it can be very rewarding. Once upon a time, the greatest minds of the age corresponded to one another through letters. Some of these have been collected and preserved for posterity. We can now buy volumes of letters photocopied between lovers or fellow professors. Discussions on the meaning of life, the makeup of the universe, and the price of love can all be found in these precious documents. They are the very thing which make women swoon. They can make a man giddy with anticipation. Where are the letters? We must bring them back, else a part of ourselves will die.


  • Searching for the Next Perfect Song

    It’s been far too long since I first heard The Fray’s “Cable Car – Over My Head” single…. close to a year now. Can that be true? I am sad. I am sad because The Fray made one of the last great songs I’ve heard. The only other is Dallas Green’s “Day Old Hate.” It is a beautiful song in its own right. But even with Dallas Green (or City and Colour), it’s been months since I first heard the song. I am collecting these great songs, hoping to put together the ultimate ballad compilation some day. There’s no telling how long it will take… guess it depends on the music.

    If any of you have heard “Cable Car” and “Day Old Hate”, I’d love to hear your song recommendations. Yes, I’ve heard “Chasing Cars” by Snow Patrol. It’s nice, it’s got a special something, but in the end, I just feel like I’ve memorized the song too quickly and the magic is gone (don’t read into that). So here it is – if any of you can help, send me the name of an artist and song that I should hear. Just so you know, metal, country, rap, screaming, classic rock, and tejano do NOT qualify. If you can comment intelligently about the band and/or song, I’ll post it here on CultureFeast. Music is just too important.

    Songs worthy of mention are “Save Me” by Remy Zero, “Collapse” by Sparta, and “Make This Go On Forever” by Snow Patrol. Still, I need more music!Â

    I need fresh sound. I’m counting on you.


  • Lessons Learned from a Cat

    I firmly believe that most of life’s lessons can be learned from a cat. Take, for example, just a few minutes ago. I call for Mr. Kitty outside. Within a few minutes he appears at the back door. I let him in, and after a quick rub-against-my-leg greeting, he heads toward the food and water bowls, then stops to wait for me to accompany him. Mr. Kitty absolutely will not go to his food and water bowls of his own accord without an escort… Don’t ask.

    That’s not the point, though. The point is that after I pour him fresh water (he usually refuses to drink “old” water), he sniffs at it and then waits to see what I will do. If I walk out of the bathroom immediately, he is distracted and will occasionally follow me out without having had a drink. If I stand and wait, he will get comfortable and start lapping away. If I wait for him to start and then walk away, he stops drinking as though my leaving has broken his ability to concentrate.

    Although Mr. Kitty is a cat, and therefore must instinctually pay attention to anything and everything that makes the slightest movement or sound, there is something yet to be learned from this.

    Here’s how the stream of consciousness goes: kitty doesn’t like to be left alone -> kitties are like babies -> babies don’t like to be alone -> maybe that’s why babies cry when they wake up from a nap…

    Sure, babies get hungry and thirsty and need their diapers changed. But has anyone ever considered the effect of loneliness/abandonment a baby may experience when waking up alone in an empty room? Think about it. The child develops inside the mother, developing an intimate bond and sense of togetherness. After birth, the baby is comforted by presence – the presence of the mother primarily. A mother puts her baby in a crib of some sort to take a nap. The baby’s last moments of consciousness still involve the sense of presence. When naptime is over, the baby awakens to a cold, empty, abandoned feeling caused by the lack of presence. No sounds of mother nearby. No sense of touch. No warm breath. Baby is alone…

    So that’s how my mind works. All that from giving my cat a bowl of water. See? Inevitably, there are always fresh new lessons to be learned from your cat.

    Disclaimer: It is highly recommended that when searching for inspiration, one’s own cat be used, as using a foreign cat could result in severe side effects such as dry mouth, watery eyes, bad luck, and irritable bowel. For best results, please consult your veterinarian.


  • Is Tony Romo THE MAN?

    As expected, the sports commentators are all buzzing about the quarterback “controversy” in Dallas. When Big Bill took Drew Bledsoe out of the Giants’ game on Monday, he signaled to Drew and to the country that he had more of chance at winning with Tony Romo at the helm. For those of you not paying attention to all the Dalllas hoopla, fans and commentators alike have been calling for Tony Romo since last season.

    It’s not that anyone hates Drew Bledsoe. Actually, quite the opposite. Everyone who knows him seems to speak very highly of Drew as a man, a husband, and a father. Unfortunately, family virtues don’t win football games, and they don’t keep Bill Parcells from sitting you on the bench. Anyone who has paid attention to the NFL over the past decade knows that Bledsoe was quite a talent.

    I remember when he was injured and Tom Brady ended up taking the team all the way. I remember watching the following season with interest as the New England Patriots chose to start Tom Brady even with a healthy Bledsoe raring to go. I felt bad for him. That’s gotta hurt. An injury is usually nobody’s fault. So he works his butt off to get conditioned to return and the team says to him, “No thanks… your understudy can take it from here… But thanks for all the good times.” Sometimes I wonder why anyone ever chooses to play professional sports. Popularity and loyalty last as long as a team huddle. After that, you’re on your own.

    Of course, I stop wondering when I remember the paychecks. Most people can’t foresee their own deeply wounded pride because the multi-million dollar paycheck gets in the way. Still, Romo got the call. We wait to hear whether Romo is now officially “The Man.” He’s young, he’s quick, he’s willing to take risks, and he’s impetuous – everything you need. Drew was just too slow and took too long to throw the ball. You can’t get sacked that many times without Aikman-esque brain damage. I’m just referring to the concussions, okay?

    It never ceases to amaze me how reporters manage to find something to latch onto and beat to death so they can have their pressing news feature of the week. Then again, it’s nice that for once everyone isn’t talking about Terrell Owens.